Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Mom is doing well. Today was was of the days that were good. I was up early, got a few things done that I needed to do, paid some bills, looked up the things I needed to for my certification test ( mostly searching for my books ), talked to Auntie Kristina on the phone, talked to a friend of mine on facebook ( he says hello ) & then got ready & took the pups for a really nice walk. The weather was so beautiful. It hit almost 60 degrees & the sun was just shining away. Blue skies with no clouds. It was a shame that Mom had to get things done today or I would have gone for a longer walk. Do you remember our walks we would take? I sure do. No matter where they were we always had so much to talk about, laugh about but most of all we were making memories & that is all Mom has now to hold onto. Memories that I will cherish forever & ever. Thank you so much for all that you gave Mom. I know I used to say that to you often.... just wish it would have been every day that I did. Because of you, Tyler.... Mom was a better person. I looked at things in a totally different perspective than most.You were & still am my shining star. You always will be. Hope you continue to go to the star that Mom named after you. If you do I hope you are smiling & thinking about that day I gave that to you. I remember the smile on your face. You thought it was so cool & so neat. We were suppose to watch your name go up in space together but they kept pushing it back month after month. The day finally came when it went up in space but we couldn't watch it together.... you had other plans. You passed away 11 hours prior to send off. Guess you wanted a front row seat. I bet your view was much cooler than Mom's. 
 The phone was pretty quiet today so I really don't have any updates for you. I am sure that Grandpa will call tonight. Mom will check in to see how Debbie's first day at her new job went. She is training on days & then being switched to nights. Hope she likes it. Maybe Meme will call but if not I am sure that she will tomorrow during her lunch break. Still need to call Aunt beck. I will do that tomorrow too. Need to as she leaves in a few days. Pups are good. Mark is busy as always. Mom knows that you watch over us all. Thank you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 Here is the daily prayer for today..... February 1~ I will open rivers in high places & fountains in the midst of the valleys: I will make the wilderness a pool of water, & the dry land springs of water. Moms know what to make from hamburger, fabric scraps, & winter: meatloaf, quilts & windowsill gardens! As God does, they show their children how to live " as if. " As if useless can become useful, as if seemingly dead can live, as if Spring will come. Amen. 
 Well, the night sky is fully upon us now & the sky looks pretty clear from what I can see right now. Hopefully that means that the sky will be brightly lit with many many stars shining & perhaps the moon as well. regardless of it all...Mom will be whispering to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening out for my voice. I miss you like crazy but know that you are at peace & you are happy now. I know this because I have been told many of times. Mom hopes that your night is filled with happiness & peace. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Get some rest if you can & sweet dreams as well. Come see Mom in my dreams tonight when I close my eyes to fall asleep. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are & will forever be my true Hero & Mom's Wind Beneath My Wings.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!