Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is doing alright. I am so sorry for not writing to you again but honestly these last couple of days have been really busy for me. I know I don't need to explain as you see everything now & I shouldn't feel guilty but I do. I know you are not mad at Mom but Mom is mad at herself. I feel so close to you when I write to you & missing a day is hard for me. 
 So yesterday Mom went running around for my vehicle. I went to the RMV & registered it & got the stickers & plates. Then Mark took it to go get it inspected. Everything is now all legal & Mom has freedom once again after 4 years of not having a vehicle. It feels so good. I actually drove around all day today running errands. I actually did not need any help & I got to ll the places I needed to go to. I was so proud of myself. I can hear you now saying..." aww...my Mom is growing up "....lol Gosh, Tyler how I miss your voice. I can still hear it in my head. I hope that I never loose that. I want to hear it for the rest of my life in my head. Please help Mom not to ever have your voice leave me. Thank you my sweet precious son. 
 Mom heard today that Aunt Beck & John are back at home. They seem to be very tired & they are catching their breath. Guess I will chat with her in the next day or 2. Meme called & said she went out with friends today. It was so nice to hear. She seemed to have a really fun time. That made Mom happy. Bob is doing well too. Grandpa called last night. Things are good with both him & Debbie. They all will be coming down to see Mark & Mom next Sunday for Easter. I can't believe how the time is flying by. This will be the 4th year that I haven't spent Easter with you. It makes Mom so sad. I try not to think about it but it is hard. Mom is looking to get you something so that Meme can put it on your stone when they travel back. I haven't found it just yet as I want it to be something special. I think you will be proud of Mom as today I went to the UPS store & I sent Spencer your Jack watch. I had talked to him about it awhile ago but just got around to sending it to him. He still thinks about you daily, Tyler. He calls me Mom still & still says that you are his brother. It warms my heart, makes me smile & cry all at the same time. I know you are smiling down on him & his little family just like you do to us all. 
 Yesterday, Mom did get terrible news though. Auntie Kristi got in touch with me to let me know that one of our sweet friends lost her Dad in a car accident yesterday. I guess by what she said that he had a heart attack while behind the wheel. They tried to preform CPR on him but he passed while in route to DHMC. She is a mess as I can imagine. My heart hurts for her, her Mom, her brother, her fiance, & their 3 children. We both know that life is not fair at times. I will be praying for them all. I hope that her Dad arrived in Heaven safely & received his wings I know he will be watching over his family now. He will be missed that is for sure. 
 I think that is all the updates for now but I do have a couple prayers to write out so I can be caught up once again. Here they are. March 18~ How can I rejoice when I'm having " one of those days," Father? How can I pray continually when I feel overwhelmed? When I look to Jesus' example, I find the answers I seek. He didn't stay on his knees all the time, but he did maintain an ongoing dialogue with you. He acknowledged that he would prefer to avoid his cross, but he willingly took it up because it was necessary. He focused on the joy to come later, in due time. I too can give thanks for the good things in my life, even when bad things are bearing down on me. I can keep up a dialogue with you as I go about my day & I can be joyful in a deep abiding sense, knowing that all is in your hands. Amen.
 March 19~ Rejoice evermore. Pray without ceasing. In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. Bless me with silent conversations, O God, so I may be with you while doing chores, while singing in the shower, while brushing the cat. Sometimes words don't have to be spoken to be understood & I get your message, too. In the silence that fills & comforts. Amen.
 All caught up yet again. The evening sky is almost upon us. The sunset tonight is leaving the sky in all pastel shades of blue, orange, pink & purple. It is really beautiful. Mom is hoping your night is filled with love, peace & rest. May it be all that you need & want it to be. If you sleep tonight Mom is hoping you have the sweetest of dreams. Come visit me in mine tonight to. Be listening out for my voice when Mom whispers to you later. Maybe just maybe we will get to see the stars & moon shining bright tonight. If so you know you will see Mom smiling. Hope you smile too. I miss you so much, Tyler. I miss you like crazy. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night my sweet precious son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Today is Auntie Ann's Birthday. Make sure you go & say hello. Just don't scare her...lol! Love you pumpkin xoxoxo.