Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How was your day today? Mom has had a rough day again. So many emotions are going through my head right now. I am angry, sad, hurt, confused & so many more. I am not sure what to do. I guess I am just sick of being lied to & being alone all the time. I know you can see Mom & I know that you are not happy. I am sorry Tyler. I never lied to you when you were here & I am not about to lie to you now. No need to as you can see all now. Mom is just tired of being walked all over. I don't know what I keep doing wrong. It has to be me, right? I have to be doing something to keep having people ( men ) treat me the way that they do. I try to be understanding, I try to be supportive, I try to do a lot of things but all I ever get in return is sh*t on. I don't understand anymore. I am tired of trying to figure it out. It is not fair. I hate feeling the way I do. I am the type of person who gives 100% plus & just once I would like to get that in return. For once I want to be worth it to someone. I want to be wanted & I want to be loved & missed by someone. I wonder if that will ever happen? Will I ever get my " fairy tale ", my " happily ever after? " I guess only time will tell huh? I wish you were here. I could sure use a " Tyler " talk. You would cheer Mom up like you always used to do. I miss you so much. I miss everything. I miss it all. I love you my sweet precious son. 
 Mom has a few updates for you. Meme got in touch with Mom this morning & told me that Uncle Dick is in the hospital. Guess he had chills, a high fever, & he couldn't breathe very well. He was admitted into the hospital with pneumonia & is still having a hard time breathing. Aunt Shirley is still having a hard time too. She can barely walk & really can't do anything. Pain pills are not helping her & she is just in so much pain. Doctors still don't know why. Guess she will be having therapy & a few tests done. Meme is still not feeling all that well either. Still a lot going on there with her & Bob. Grandpa is good & so is Debbie. Spoke to Marion tonight for the 1st time in over a month or longer. She has been really sick & landed in the ER last week. Doctors don't know what is going on with her either. She has really bad stomach pains, can't eat & has lost a good amount of weight in a week. She will be going in for more tests as well. They think it may be her gallbladder but not positive. She also has something on her kidney that they don't like the looks of. She will keep me posted when she hears of anything. As always Mark is working a ton of hours & is never home, but he likes it that way, the pups are doing well. Driving me crazy as usual & as far as Mom....well you already know that answer. Please if you could watch over us all & be with us that would be so appreciated, Tyler. Thank you. I know that you will do all that you can.
 Here is your daily prayer for tonight. March 8~ Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. Lord, what comfort we find in your changeless nature. When we look back & remember all the ways you've guided us in the past, we know we have no need to be anxious about the future. You were, are & always will be our Savior & Lord. Why should we fear instability when you are always here with us? Amen.
 Well, the night sky is upon us & has been for a few hours now. Mom is hoping to look up later & see the stars shining bright. Nevertheless if I don't see anything, I will still whisper to you as I always do each night. Be listening out for my voice. Mom hopes that you have a peaceful night. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Have sweet dreams & come see me in my dreams tonight as well. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are one & only hero & my wind beneath my wings. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Good night my sweet son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!