Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing today? I hope that all is well up there in the beautiful sky that we call Heaven. It was a really nice day here in Texas. The sun was shining, blue skies and no clouds all day long. The temp was 65 degrees. Perfect weather to just simply enjoy. Mom is doing really well today. Had a busy weekend. Saturday I went out and did some fun shopping. Grandpa gave Mark & I money for Christmas so we went out and spent the money on goodies for ourselves. Got some clothes, shoes, Paris stuff, and also a French Press so that Mark can make coffee. All in all it was a great day. We took the pups for a walk later in the day and then relaxed and watch a couple movies at night. I am so sorry I didn't write to you last night but I was just relaxing from the day out. It was my first time out in 2 weeks so it took a lot out of me. Today we went grocery shopping at Krogers and Walmart and then came back and took the pups out for another long walk. Did some house work and laundry and now waiting to eat dinner. We will relax later tonight and watch some tv and then go to bed as it is a work day for Mark tomorrow. 
 I can't believe that in a couple days it will be the end of 2013 and the beginning of a New Year. You know that New Years is Mom's favorite Holiday. I always have said it is a time to leave the past in the old year and be refreshed with a new year ahead of us. I still will stick to my philosophy but it will be pretty hard for Mom. I can't just leave it all in the past because of losing you. I can leave the rest behind and move forward but not when it comes to you. I never will be able to do this. You were such a huge part of Mom that the day I lost you I lost part of myself too. It was always you & I. People came and went out of our lives but we always remained together. Now I don't even have that anymore. I miss you so much. I miss all of our times together. The good, the bad, the crazy, and the ugly. What I wouldn't do to get that back. I know you are still around Mom... it is just in a different way now. Some days are better than others to digest that. Just bare with me still. It is just so hard to handle at times. I promised you that I would be ok and I will keep that promise to you. I will NEVER break that. I just have some off days. 
 The clouds rolled in a little while ago so I am crossing my fingers in hopes that I will be able to see some stars up there in the sky. I would love to see you shining brightly up there. Regardless I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for Mom. Please continue to watch over us all. I miss you beyond anything anyone could ever imagine and I love you to the moon and back. You continue to still be my world. Again that will NEVER change. Fly high and fly freely up there with the other Angels my precious son. Have a wonderful night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!