Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart! How are you doing today? I hope it is sunny and nice up in Heaven where you are. Here in Texas it was unusually windy today and very overcast and cloudy. I was hoping for some sun but guess it is finally coming to us in the next 4 days! It will be a very nice change that I will embrace. I guess Wednesday it will be 70 degrees so I am smiling about this! I have been hearing and seeing posts on Facebook that NH is at 3 degrees and the snow will be coming at anytime now. I guess the snow is expected to dump from 10" to 12" or more. I can say I am not missing that at all this year. They can have it! I thought maybe just maybe I would miss it just a little bit but nope not at all. I will enjoy a Green Holiday season!!!! 
 Earlier today I found a thumb drive and it had a ton of pictures of you on it, Max when he was little and when Snickers was a puppy and we just got him for you. It was so nice to see these pictures but it made me sad and brought tears to my eyes because it just reminded me of what I had and what I am missing so much. Snickers just cuddled up to you and slept on your lap and in your arms. Mark thought it was the cutest thing. I will post one of the pictures of you with Snickers on here tomorrow when I have more time. I think you will enjoy seeing some and smiling.
 Today makes 1 1/2 years that Mark and Mom have been together. I am so blessed to have him in my life. I thank Amy everyday for introducing him to me. He is my rock and he is keeping his word to you that he would take care of me. He does, Tyler. He makes sure that we have all that we need and that Mom doesn't go without. He holds me when I am at my weakest and encourages me that everything will be ok. I draw my strength from Mark and you still. I am so lucky to have you both in my life. Mark here in the physical world and you now in the spiritual world taking care of me. Thank you my sweet son. 
 Sunday we are going Christmas shopping for a family that I personally know that are going through some hard times and struggling. They have 2 daughters that need to have a Christmas so Mark and I are going to go out and get some things for them, wrap them and send them on there way. It is the best I can do seeings how I have really no one to buy for this year. I was wrapping a few gifts I bought Mark and was thinking back to all the times I did it for you to see the joy and surprise on your face. The moments of being a parent and the innocence of being a child. Purely priceless for Mom. I miss those times. It is during the reminiscing I find it the hardest to not have you with me. It hurts the most. This is when my heart aches the worst. I love you so much and it was the hardest thing for me to tell you it was ok and that I would be fine for you to cross over to the other side. I hope to never ever do anything again that tears my heart in to and into tiny pieces. It broke me, but I am trying to pick the pieces back up and heal. Be gentle to Mom. I am doing my best!
 I won't be seeing the stars in the sky once again tonight but I know you are shining brightly and doing amazing things up there in Heaven. I whispered to you once already. Hope you heard it! I will do it again tonight. Have a wonderful night, Tyler! Sweet dreams my sweet son. I miss you so much and I love you even more! Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!