Dear Tyler,

Merry Christmas my sweet son in Heaven! I hope that you are doing great and you had one hell of a celebration with everyone today! I can only hope that you stopped by to see Mom and Mark at some point today. This is the 1st Christmas without you and it was tough. I did break down a few times last night and today but that is to be expected. Mark did such a wonderful job at making this Christmas all that he could to help me out. He was just so sweet to me. I couldn't have asked for more from him. I got the chance to speak to Grandpa, Meme, Great Grammy, Aunt Becky, Aunt Shirley, Uncle Dick, Andrea and many friends today as well. It was really nice to hear their voices. I miss everyone so much but I hope to be making a visit to NH really soon. Everyone seemed cheerful so that was nice. Everyone did say how much they miss you too. I see your friend Greg and of course Spencer sent you messages on Facebook along with Mom today. That was so sweet of them. Yup.. brought tears to my eyes and I bet it did the same to you. I am sure that it is not easy to see us cry all the time or shed tears from time to time when something reminds us of you. Grieving is one of the hardest things to overcome. Everyone does it in their own time frame and everyone does it differently. No 2 people are alike. I am only doing what I know and I am trying my damnest to get through this on a day to day basis. I only want to make you proud of Mom. You made me so proud every day for 22 years so this is all I can do to repay you. 
 The day was nice and somewhat warm. 65 degrees and cloudy/overcast all day. I am hoping that I will be able to look to the sky tonight and see all the stars. I need to see my bright star shining up in the Heavens. If for some reason I can't see them or you I know in my heart that you are up there watching over me, Mark, and everyone else. I will as I always do whisper to you. Be listening for Mom's voice. I hope that you hear me nightly. I believe that you do and actually that is all that matters to me! I miss you so much my sweet son. I love you unconditionally. I love you beyond words and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. 
 Please tell everyone in Heaven that I said hello, I miss them and Merry Christmas. This Holiday is just not the same... y'all are missing and it hurts us. I know it hurts me. I know that it hurts your Dad and all our family and friends. Please continue to watch over us. Thank you for all that you do. It never goes unnoticed. I love you pumpkin. Again, Merry Christmas from me to you. Hugs and kisses to you Tyler.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!