Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing today in Heaven? Mom is so sorry that she couldn't write to you the last couple days. On Sunday night I got really really sick. I am still not sure if I got food poisoning or just a stomach bug but it has been pure hell for me. I have not been this sick in almost a year and boy it is doing a number on me. My back and stomach still hurt from vomiting for 5 hours straight. Mark has been wonderful though. I know you are proud of him, Tyler. He has stayed home with me so far this week to take care of me and the pups. He has done all the cooking, cleaning, etc.. for the last 3 days. He is just amazing. He really takes care of Mom and I know that means so much to you. I know he promised you he would and he will never stop. The pups have been next to me the last 3 days too. Snickers has laid next to me all day and night until Mark can and then he knows I am not alone and he goes off to his bed and Max has done the same. He is the " management " of it all....lol  :)
 Ok... enough of this. I hope you are doing all the things you want to in Heaven. I was wondering if you were there for Amy? Did you go for her or did you meet her up in Heaven? Dave called us on the 9th and told us that her Mom and him had to make the decision to take her off the breathing machine and stop the intubation. Amy passed peacefully within minutes. Mom was still so sick when I received the news but it still hurt. I know that it was for the best and that Amy deserves to be free and flying high like you. She is released of all the things that tied her down here in the physical world. I hope that she is reunited with her Dad and her daughter. Please tell her that we all love and miss her and that we will all take care of Dave for her. Give her big hugs from us all. Let her give you a very big hug and know that it is from Mom. I miss you so much. 
 The Holidays are approaching so quickly and I find myself missing you beyond the normal. I guess it is because the Holidays are meant to be with family and friends and I am with out them all...especially you. This is so hard to handle at times. I am trying so hard to be happy for you and for me. Just some days are better than others. Please know I am doing my best. 
 Again... 6 days in row it is overcast and cloudy. I haven't been out in 3 days but I still have been whispering to you. I hope you heard Mom. Don't think the stars will be out again tonight either but I will whisper to you as I always do. I hope you will have a beautiful evening and have all kinds of sweet dreams. 
 I will write to you again tomorrow. I know this is short but I couldn't go another day without writing. I am going to relax and lay down. I should be back to myself tomorrow. I love you my sweet precious son. Please know this. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!