Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart! How are you today? I hope you are well up there in Heaven. Things here are alright. Gloomy day here and cold. No sun in sight. Kind of matches my mood though. Mom is really not doing well today. I am fine health wise my heart just hurts. We spoke to Dave last night and he updated us on Amy. There was no change in her health. The doctors tried to do an ultrasound on her belly but every time they moved her the fluid in her body would go to her 1 good lung so they stopped. The doctors said they were giving her meds to help with her blood pressure, pain meds, and " blood products ". Dave said that there was going to be a family meeting today to make some decisions. I guess the whole thing goes back to you and all that the doctors were telling me. A lot is the same with Amy. No one should ever have to make these hard decisions. It was either keep doing what they are doing for Amy or take her off the breathing machine and it would just be a matter of time. I wish that life would be easier. I feel for Dave and Amy's Mom. It is not easy to have to be on this side and wonder if the decisions you are making are the right ones. I know I wondered for so many years when it came to you. I still do wonder. I continue to ask you to please be with Amy. If it is her time to go home to Heaven be with her and let her know she will be missed and that we all love her. I wish I was there to be with her in the hospital but I can't. Please tell her that I will always remember the fun times at Payless, and lastly let her know that I thank her every night for introducing me to Mark. It is because of her that I am where I am in my life. She told me many times that I deserved some one who would treat me well... she was so correct. She was so right. Mark is the one. I will forever be grateful to her. Thank you, Tyler. It means a lot to Mom.
 Everything else is ok. Mark is doing well and the pups are doing good. As usual, Snickers is laying next to Mom as I write to you. He does it almost every day. He misses you and so does Max. I skyped with Grandpa and Debbie last night. It was so nice to see them and chat with them. They look good. Spoke to Aunt Becky too. Things over there in Vermont are good. They are hating the cold weather and are getting ready for their trip to South America in January. Aunt Becky has a count down going on.... 7 weeks! She will be there for a month. It will be good for her to go back. It has been a few years for her. She will enjoy herself!
 I found a song that I wanted to type out to you. You will understand... Here they are:

In my dreams you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind you I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a Heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you're not forgotten
Until then..
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You live forever... in my heart

This song is just so perfect. It is all that I want to say and so much more. I miss you so much. I love you. I hope that you enjoy the song too. You were my precious child and you ALWAYS will. Nothing will change that EVER!!!! 
 Please continue to watch over Mom, and the rest of our family and friends. Have a wonderful night and sweet dreams my precious son. Be listening to me when I whisper to you tonight... My bright shining star. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!