Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son in Heaven! How are you doing today? I hope that this letter finds you well. Mom is doing ok. It has been a full day and I have been busy. I have been reflecting on all that 2013 brought Mom. The good times, the bad times, and the complete sad times. In just a few short hours.. 7 to be exact it will be a New Year..2014! I can't get over how fast a year goes by now. Mark & I are doing nothing! We are staying in and watching the ball drop on tv. We know the streets in our city will be so busy and we really don't want to be out in that or be a part of it so staying in and being safe is the way to go for us this year. I am ok with that. Haven't had a quiet New Years Eve in a very long time so I think the change will be good for us. 
 I wanted to let you know that I don't plan on making any New Year Resolutions because I always seem to break them and get mad at myself so I decided that this year I will just focus on myself. I plan on eating healthy, continuing to exercise to stay fit ( and healthy ), and continue to relearn to live my life without you now, relearn who I am, relearn to smile again, and relearn to be happy. It is so hard to live without you, but I know you are up there in Heaven wanting to smack me every time I cry or I get upset. I know you want to shout " Stop it... I am here with you..just in a different way now ". I am going to start thinking positive and see the positive in things instead of the negative. I have a lot to work on but I know the outcome will be great and I will have 1 proud Son up in Heaven saying " That's my Mom! " 
 I wonder if you will be Celebrating up in Heaven with all the Angels tonight or if it is just an ordinary night for you???? If you do get to Celebrate have lots of fun up there with Uncle Keith, Ron, Amy, and the rest of the gang. Tell them that we all say Happy New Year and that we miss them. 
 The weather here has been really cold..a mere 45 degrees and it has been overcast and cloudy all day long. Looks like the stars won't be able to be seen again in the sky tonight. Doesn't matter because I know you are up there shining bright for us all. You are watching over us like you always do. Thank you so much for this. It means a lot to Mom to have you do all that you do for me and our family and friends on a daily basis. Be listening for Mom to whisper to you tonight. I love you more than life itself. I miss you like crazy. 
 I hope that you have a peaceful night in Heaven. Fly high and fly free. Sweet dreams my precious son. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. Please watch over Uncle Dick as he is in the Hospital in Massachusetts. Sounds like it was something minor that has turned into something more. I am awaiting an update on things. Thanks Tyler :)