Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin. How are you today? I hope that you are going great & you are learning all that you need to. I hope that you are doing things that you want to as well. Mom is doing better today.. not 100% but definitely better. I went to bed early & got some rest & woke up with a headache around 5 am & fell back to sleep for a couple hours. I had a headache again so I will be taking some medicine & going to bed early again. I just wanted to stop by & write you a quick letter. I wanted you to know that I miss you like crazy & I love you with all that I have. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. I look at your pictures all day long & I can't help but get sad & tear up. I was doing some cleaning earlier when I felt better & I found an old MP3 player of mine. Mark charged it for me & I was listening to the songs on there... it was way back in 2009 or 2010. I remember it because I brought it with us when we went to Florida. It made me so sad to think about it. It hurts not having you with Mom. I hate it. I wish it didn't have to be this way. I have wished that for 2 years now. I wish you were with us right now so I could hear you laugh, your voice, & I could see your face. I know you are happy & you are whole now & I am happy for you... really I am but I hurt so much. Time does not heal all wounds at all. That saying is so very wrong. Times makes it hurt more. I am trying my hardest but I still have those days & I guess today is one of them. I am so sorry my sweet precious son. I want you to see Mom laugh & smile but like I said there are those days.....
 Bob went to the doctors today but Meme did not call me to tell me how things went. I am sure she will call tomorrow. Spoke to Aunt Beck today for over an hour. It was nice to catch up as we hadn't spoken in a couple weeks. They are doing well. Lots of company & they are busy busy. Over all things for them are getting better. John has another surgery scheduled in late August so I will keep you posted on that. Bean is well. Her hubby is back from Vegas so that is good. Think that is all the updates I have for you today.
 The evening sky will be upon us earlier tonight as it was cloudy & rainy today & guess it will be that way again tomorrow. I didn't see anything shining brightly in the sky last night but that is ok because I know you are somewhere shining for all to see! I will look again tonight. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you hear Mom. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Please never forget this. I love you unconditionally, this will never change!
 I hope you have a wonderful night tonight & you do all that you want. Please watch over Mom & all the rest of our family & friends. Thank you. I hope that you have sweet dreams & that when I fall asleep tonight I see you in my own dreams.
 My head is hurting more so I am going to end this letter now. I know you understand & I know you can see Mom & the pain that she is in. I will write more tomorrow with the daily prayers. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!