Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? I hope the weather is much nicer up there in Heaven because it sure is still cold and rainy here. Mom is a little stressed out today. Wish I could say that things are going well for our family but I can't. We are doing well in Texas but Meme & Bob in NH are not doing so great. Bob drove himself to the hospital again this morning. They did some tests and it showed that his bladder is still enlarged and on top of that his enzymes we elevated and it showed that he had a heart attack. They transported him to DHMC where he is getting more tests done and they admitted him. Meme is so stressed out. Not knowing what is going on with Bob, missing work so much lately, and the finances... she is just not being herself. Aunt Becky and I are very scared for her. Meme is just so out there. Her language is terrible, she is angry at the world it seems and angry at Bob for being sick. Aunt Becky & I are afraid that if she doesn't settle down and relax that she is going to make herself sick or worse..she may have a heart attack. I spoke to her several times and it hurts me that we are just so far away to help her out. In times like these that I wish that we lived closer. Could you please do Meme & Bob a couple favors.... For Meme: Could you please be with her tonight and take some of her stress away. Guide her to a place where she can see that everything will be alright and work itself out. No one wants this and it is no ones fault. Let her see that the money issues will be taken care of and she needs to not stress out. For Bob: Could you please be with him in the hospital and sit with him so that he is not alone. Please let the doctors find out what is going on and causing all this pain. Let it be something that can be taken care of and not critical or serious. For Mom: Please be with me so that I can have the strength to help Meme & Bob out from a distance. Give me the strength to let them know and realize that everything will be ok. Let me be able to listen to whoever needs to talk and let me be able to give encouraging words to help out. Thank you so much for your help from above. It means more to me than words could say. I need you to know I would rather have you here with me but I know that I can't so it is very comforting to know I have you watching over Mom and every one else from above. I have such a beautiful, caring, and loving Angel in you. I am truly lucky & blessed. Thank you again, Tyler.
 I believe that everything else is going well. Haven't really spoken to Grandpa in a few days but I know he is ok. Uncle Dick is on the road to recovery. I did receive an update from Aunt Jacqui last night. Aunt Mary & Uncle Dan are doing well. They are up to their eyeballs in snow in Canada but they are safe and warm. Haven't heard from your Dad in awhile so I am assuming he is doing well. He did text me on Christmas. I responded but didn't get a reply back from him. Haven't heard anything since then. Everyone else is fine to my knowledge. I must thank you again for keeping a close eye on our family. Just to let you know too... Max & Snickers are doing well. They actually have been behaving themselves so not to sure what is up with that...LOL  :)
 Mom is doing ok. I can't say well. I have been really tired lately and in a habit of not wanting to do anything again. Not sure if I am just depressed about everything or if I am depressed that I can't work out still because of my leg still needing to heal. It could be a combo of both.. not sure. I do get out of bed, I do take a shower, and I do housework on days that it is needed. I guess I am happy with that. I hope to shake this feeling soon. I don't like it and it is not Mom. I think of you all the time and I miss you so much. I love you. Some days are better than others. On a good day I cry a little and on a bad day I cry all day long. A part of me went away with you that I will never get back and I know this. I am just trying to find ways to live and relearn things without you here with me. It is not easy and I am trying!!! Just wanted you to know this.
 The sky is crappy again.... guess the stars won't be shining but I know you will be shining brightly up in the sky. I will whisper to you as I always do. I hope you hear Mom. I miss you and I love you. To the moon & back. Sweet dreams my precious son. I hope you have a wonderful evening. May it be peaceful for you. Fly high & free! Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. Forgot to tell you... my 1st official game of Chess is over and I won!!!! I know you were watching me and perhaps helping me out...if so Thank you! Mark said he was thoroughly impressed!!!!