Dear Tyler,

How are you doing my sweet son? I hope that you are well on this Monday afternoon. Things here are ok. The weather started out being really nice in the 60's with the sun shining. Now the clouds are rolling in and it is dipping in the temperature hourly. I am watching tv and it says that we are in a Winter Weather Alert. Guess starting 3 am to 6 pm tomorrow we are suppose to get some nasty weather. Some snow, sleet & freezing rain. The tv is already running down the list of things that are cancelled for tomorrow. It makes me laugh because of the weather we are used to in NH but makes sense at what they do down here because they are not equipped with anything to take care of the freezing rain or snow. 
 Mom is doing ok today. I am pretty tired due to not sleeping but 1 hour last night. Max had a rough night. He was crying and whining every 2 hours or so. Mark & I were taking turns with him last night. He is failing fast. His right eye is completely filmed over and it is a full cataract now. His other eye is starting to do the same. He doesn't hear all that well now and he drinks like there's no tomorrow and sleeps all the time. It is so sad to watch this. I want him to be as well as he can be but the minute I hear the words " he is suffering " I will have to do what I dread but I will not let him suffer. It wouldn't be fair to Max. He is 11 years old and has had a wonderful and spoiled life. If you could watch over him that would be great. Mom would appreciate it. Thanks Tyler!
 So... I told you yesterday that I would write all the Lyrics to the song " The Dance " and I will but not today. I found another song that is one of my favorites and I think that you would like it as well. The song is called " Stars ". Here are some of the Lyrics to it:
 " I lit a fire with the love you left behind. And it burned wild and crept up the mountainside.I followed your ashes into outer space, I can't look out the window, I can't look at this place. I can't look at the stars.. they make me wonder where you are. Stars...up on Heaven's Boulevard.. And if I know you at all, I know you've gone too far, So I, I can't look at the stars. All those times we looked up at the sky, looking out so far, we felt like we could fly. And now I'm all alone in the dark of night. The moon is shining but I can't see the light, and I can't look at the stars..they make me wonder where you are. Stars... up on Heaven's Boulevard...And if I know you at all, I know you've gone too far, So I, I can't look at the stars. Ohhh Ohhh Ohhh...Stars...Ohh they make me wonder where you are. Stars... up on Heaven's Boulevard..And if I know you at all, I know you've gone too far... So I can't look at the stars. "
 What do you think? I love this song. It is so pretty. I am going to probably put that song up here on your blog so I can share it and for others to hear it. I hope you like it Tyler. It has special meaning for Mom to you. I miss you so much and like the song says.. I wonder where you are. I know you are up there but where is there? So many questions for you with no answers. Maybe I will get some when I have another reading. I hope you will come through. I love you pumpkin!
 Well, I know I probably won't see the stars in the sky tonight wit the weather coming in but I am hoping that I will be surprised like I was the other night. Either way I will whisper to you so I ope you will be listening for Mom. I hope you have a wonderful and peaceful evening. Sweet dreams my precious son. I miss and love you more than words can say or express to anyone. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!