Dear Tyler,

Another rainy day here in Texas. Guess we are getting weather from some tropical storm that is passing through. Not as humid out so I will take it! Today has been a better day for Mom. Got a little sleep last night and I feel better. Got to speak to Meme and Aunt Becky today as well so that made me smile. Sure do miss our family and friends in NH. It hits home when I hear people talking about what they are all doing together.... I say " hey, if I was there I would be with them and doing that too". Just gets lonely at times! I now know what and how you felt when I would tell you things that I did and you were left out when you were at Crotched Mountain. I am so sorry for that. I am sorry that you had to endure that pain for 2 years. You were always on my mind, everyday and spoke about you to many during the day. I was and am so proud of you. You were and still are my everything. I miss you terribly. There are people that I talk to daily that never knew you passed. They are so surprised when I tell them and it hurts even more when the words come out of my mouth. It is those times when reality sinks in for me. I still feel at times you are on vacation and I just can't speak to you. Guess it is a permanent vacation for you in some ways. I can't help feel the pain and void that you are gone, but I can't also help but feel happiness for you. To know you are not living with restrictions and a vent anymore is beyond any words that I could speak. I guess I am going to be selfish once again and say that I just wish I could see it. See you walking, jumping, etc... all the things I haven't been able to see in 20 years. All the things we both missed out on. I have to tell you that if I was given a choice and asked to do it all over again with you.. I would not hesitate... I would do it in a heart beat. That is how much I love you. Unconditional love is what we had for each other. Always... that will never change. I hope that you have a great night pumpkin. Sweet dreams and I will write again tomorrow. Watch over us all like I know you already do. Fly high and free. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!