Dear Tyler,

I can't believe that today is 2 months since you left us. In exactly 3 minutes ( 5:37pm ) your heart stopped beating and you slipped away while Mom, Mark, Dad, Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Aunt Becky, & Brandy were right by your side. It crushed me to let you go and say goodbye, but I couldn't let you suffer anymore then what you already had and I couldn't be selfish to want you to stay. When you passed a part of me passed with you. I will never forget that day and every month on the 20th it haunts me. I am sure it always will. Like I said before the void will never go away or heal. I have a hole in my heart, a pain that is constant. I miss you beyond words. I miss us laughing, watching movies, listening to music, playing games, our times when we just talked, and yes even the times when we would argue & fight. I miss your face and the expressions you would make. I miss your voice. I just miss it all. I know you don't want me to grieve for you anymore because you are in a better place and you are happy doing all things you couldn't here with all of us. Meme & Aunt Becky called me today to check in on how I was doing. Lots of friends check in from time to time too. I still have a wonderful support group helping me through this. It does make it a lot easier for Mom. Mark still continues to be my rock through it all though. He is there for me through the good and bad times. He is taking care of me just like you wanted him to. He listens to me when I need to talk and holds me in quieter times. I know you are proud of him just as I am. I can see you smile and I can hear you say that you are so happy that I have him in my life...you no longer needed to worry about me. It will sound weird to some but I know you are with me and watch over me. I know this because I still get my strength from you. When times are tough or going bad I know you are around helping me through these times. I know you do that for others as well. Thank you, Tyler. Thank you for continuing to be by my side and walk with me while I am in the physical world and you in the spiritual world. I love you to the moon and back. I love you forever and always. You still are my everything. You still are my complete life. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!