Dear Tyler,

Mom is so sorry for not writing to you last night. I know its no excuse but I was just so tired. This getting up every 3 hours to make sure Max doesn't mess in the apartment is getting to me. I have been doing this for the last 3 weeks and boy is it hell. I seem to have no energy to do anything except crave sleep. Anyways.... enough of that subject. 
 Yesterday I got out to one of the major malls in Texas. Holy cow.... you know just how much I love malls but this one made me tired. It was a never ending mall. Tyler, it was like 6 separate buildings and had 4 major car garages for people to park in. It has the Cheesecake Factory and Rain Forest Cafe in it. The basement floor is an ice skating rink and after the 4 floors of the mall it has a Posh Hotel in it that is 12 floors high. It was so just much to take in all at once. It had every major " high end " stores in it..ones celebrities shop in and then other stores like the ones we used to go into all the time. It was just CRAZY...LOL!!!! This one was situated in Downtown Houston. The buildings there are so amazing. The height that they have are ridiculous. I really like taking pictures of the sky scrapers and buildings and turning them into black and white photos. I really like the city look. Meme would tell you that I have always been a city girl rather than a country girl. I know you would love this city. I can hear you now saying : "Holy Sh*t". It makes me smile and laugh to myself when I go places. I can always hear your voice and comments that you would make. In a way it still makes me feel close to you. That is very important to me to continue to feel this way. 
 I woke up this morning and thought to myself that 2 months ago I got the dreaded phone call and I was getting ready to fly to NH to see you in the hospital. I cant believe that it has been 2 months since I heard your voice, seen your smile and heard your laugh. In ways it seems so much longer than 2 months and then in other ways it doesn't seem possible that it has been 2 months since you passed. I miss you so much. No time gone by will ever change that, Tyler. I will always miss you, every day for the rest of my life. I love you with all my heart. I hope you have a great day and a restful night. Sweet dreams my precious son. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!