Dear Tyler,

I am so sorry that I didn't write last night. Had some issues with the computer and I needed to have Mark fix it...you know how I am with computers..lol! I hope that you are doing well. I saw on Facebook yesterday that Auntie Ann's brother Steve passed away. So sad for their family. I told Auntie Ann that you and Steve were together and having fun now. Show him the ropes, ok? Today was an off day for Mom. I was missing you so much. I posted on Facebook that I was missing family and friends plus missing being a Mom. Some of my friends said that I would always be a Mom. I understand what they are saying and I know I will always be a Mom, but it is different now. I will never be a Mom to someone in the physical world again. I guess today was one of the rough days for me. I know I will have them... they just suck. It just hurts. I know you are right here with me and you will help me through these rough patches and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Everything in Texas is going alright. Mark is getting used to his job at the office, I am getting used to the apartment and being alone during the day again, and we are getting used to the weather. We had the first thunderstorm today. It was great! Nothing like Oklahoma...more like New Hampshire storms. Lots of thunder and lightning with heavy rain! Flooded the side of the apartment though. Max and Snickers didn't care for it though. Snickers was really scared...like always. Max isn't doing much at all anymore. He sleeps most of the time now. His left eye is closed and when he opens it there is a " film " over the eye. It is breaking my heart but he still shows no sign of being in any pain. We are still searching for a vet here. That way we can get a professional opinion on Max. Talked with Meme, Grandpa, and Aunt Becky today. Everyone is just fine. Grandpa, Mark, & I are going to start looking at a flat stone and sitting bench for you at the cemetery. Hopefully it will be ordered and in place before the snow falls. I also spoke to Megan briefly the other night. She said she was going to come visit you. I gave her directions so I hope she found you. I know you get lots of visitors and that makes me happy. You are so loved. It just melts my heart. I hope you have a good night pumpkin. Sweet dreams. I love you so much. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!