Dear Tyler,

It is night time once again and it is hot hot hot here in Texas. The stars are just shining so brightly. I have a whole new look about the stars now that you described to me what you see on your side. It sounds so beautiful. Today was a pretty down day for me. Spoke to Meme and a friend. I did get the van that was yours donated to a charity so that another family could use it and bring joy to their life as it did for us for so many years. The new family will know just how special the van was and where it came from. I made sure it would go to a deserving home and they would cherish it just as we did. I hope I did the right thing and by doing so I hope I made you proud. I keep thinking about my session with Forrest and how amazing it was. I wish I could have it every day. I wish we could communicate like that always. I felt close to you that day. The pain is and will always be there and the void will never be replaced or go away, but I could never be angry or upset at you for wanting and being ready to go to Heaven. That isnt me. You know that. I never will feel that way. I am sad that I cant see you and hear your voice every day, but I feel peace for you. I have a better understanding of things since Friday. I love you so much. You taught so many people so many things. I know because I learned from you. You taught me patience...something I always lacked, you taught me so much more but nothing more important then unconditional love. I look forward to finding out more and learning what else you are going to teach me in the future. Like I always say.... you are my HERO! I love you with my whole heart and soul. Sweet dreams my precious son. Continue doing all the things you love up there in the sky. Watch over Mom and the rest of our family. I am so very proud of you! Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!