Dear Tyler,

I would have written to you sooner but I was having problems with the blog page itself. I was getting frustrated with it all.... you know me an electronics...lol! Anyways, I hope that you are having a great day! It is once again hot and humid in Texas. We had a couple days break but that was it. It is in the evening here and I am missing you. I find night time to be the toughest part of my day. That is when we would chat and skype for a bit. I really miss those times. Like the saying goes.. " Don't know what you got until it's gone. " That is so true. I never took our times for granted or anything else for that matter nor would I ever. I know that life is extremely precious. I cherish every breath I take...wish others would see it that way as well. 
 The night sky is upon us and I love looking at the sky to see the moon & the stars. I always look up and smile and know that you are up there somewhere...not sure where but you are watching over me. It makes me happy to know we are still under the same sky ( so to speak ). I know you have gone to the star that Mom named after you, but I hope you go there often and it puts a smile on your face knowing who gave it to you. Mark says that you two share a bond that no one else does. Just the two of you. It is true... both your names went up in space at the same time. I don't even have that bond with you. Just you & Mark. I think that ROCKS!!!! 
 My day was OK today. I slept in due to being up with Max a few times last night. I did the house cleaning and sat down around 3:45pm or so. Made dinner and now relaxing and writing to you. I have decided to listen to a friends advice on what she is doing to make her life better. I thought she had a great idea so I have decided to try it out as well. I am starting to do exercises in the morning again to strengthen my heart and get in shape, I am going to eat healthier so that again I can lose weight and have more energy and lastly making sure that I get enough sleep to keep up with everything the day brings. I drink enough water already so I don't need to worry there. I will continue to take vitamins and a baby aspirin daily to help out as well. I want to feel better and I want more energy. I don't want to be stressed out and depressed any longer. I know you are happy with my plans of changing up my routine. I know you would want this for Mom. I know you want to see me happy & smiling & laughing so that is what I am going to do for you, but also myself. I realize I can't keep going down a destructive path. It is just not healthy and it just isn't me either. Every night when I write I will keep you posted on my progress, but I know you will already see it yourself  :) 
 Mom is going to stop writing for tonight. I have a headache and want to rest for now. Hope you have a great night and sweet dreams to you Tyler. I miss you bunches and I love you so much. Forever & always. You are my everything. Please always remember this. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!