Dear Tyler,

Hey there pumpkin. Thursday night and it is so humid for the end of August. I am waiting for what the folks here in Texas keep saying that in September the temps will go down into the mid 80's. Pretty relaxing day for me. Did some more research on moving companies and prices for us to get our stuff. Also looked for another bedroom set for the guest bedroom. Things are starting to fall into place here. Can't wait until it is all done and I can go looking for work. I need to get out and get to know more people and start making friends here. Mark has said a few times that he would like me to work for myself..open my own business. I am digging that. Just don't know what I would want to do and what kind of store. Thinking about it and will get back to you when I make more concrete decisions. Spoke to Grandpa yesterday. He was saying that it was nice during the day but you can tell it is starting to change seasons. Fall is my favorite. Not too hot and not too cold. Just right! I started to hear about all the things my friends are doing back home. Apple picking, leaves are changing, maple syrup making and the yummy candy. Guess it just makes me a little more home sick than I already am. This will be the first Fall that I have ever missed in my whole life. I have always lived in New England so this will definitely be so new to me and such a  change. I know you liked the Fall too. Your favorite holiday is in 8 weeks. Halloween. Not sure how I will take it. Another first for me being away from you and home. I miss you every day but these are the times where it hurts even more. The memories and fun times I will always remember and hold near to my heart, but I always looked forward to making new memories with you. I started this blog to you so that I could have silent conversations with you daily. It was a form of healing for me. I think that some days that's what it does to help me and other days it is just so damn hard to write to you. Whatever my mood is I am not going to stop. I feel much closer to you by writing regardless of my emotions. Some days I smile and laugh while writing and other days I am so sad and I cry all the way through it. I am trying so hard to understand what happened and why it happened the way it did. Time will never heal my pain for losing you but I am trying to learn how to deal with it and just move forward. I miss you so much. I love you with all my heart. It just hurts. The pain is so intense...I can't even explain right now...maybe some day just not tonight. I hope that your night is peaceful and quiet. I hope you have sweet dreams. Love you to the moon and back. Continue to be near me and watch over us all. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!