Dear Tyler,

I find today that is a tough day for me so I decided to write to you now so I could feel closer to you. Being in Texas has been ok. Really settling in now and getting used to the weather but not the traffic..thats hell! Dont think that will change anytime soon...people say that it is just getting worse. Anyways...days are so long being alone all the time when Mark is working. I used to skype with you or call you so that I could get my Tyler time and also so that the day went by faster for Mom. I cant do that now so that makes me really sad. I miss you so much. I miss talking to you, hearing your voice and your laugh, and seeing your face. I know I told you that I had a better outlook on things after my session with Forrest, but you need to know that the pain is still there and nobody will replace the void in my heart. No matter what I do that will always remain. You thought you were 3/4 of my world but actually you were my whole world! You were the BEST son any Mom could ever have or ever want. Sometimes I just sit here and remember the times we spent watching movies, playing that damn mini golf game, or beating your butt at Monopoly. I remember the way you acted when you saw a puppy on tv or a baby seal. I can hear you right now. I can hear your voice and it makes me smile. I just miss our times together. I know you are ok and you are happy. Honestly, I am so happy for you pumpkin. Like I said so many times before and I will continue to tell you... thats all I ever wanted for you! I know you are going places and seeing the most beautiful things up there in Heaven. Someday, I will reunite with you and see all those things with you. Again... it will be you & Mom. I love you so much my precious son. I will write later tonight. Until then... Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!