Dear Tyler

I hope today was a great day for you. I hope you got a lot accomplished because I didn't...lol. Things were crazy again here. Max is taking a turn even more for the worse. He was really bumping into everything and both eyes are completely closed. He is just sleeping and drinking water. Eating very little now. Breaks my heart to watch this. It is just like what Daisy did before she passed. Tyler, please be with Max while he is going through this. I don't think he is in pain.. he is showing no signs of this but just the same... I don't want him to suffer! These are the days I wish I could pick up the phone or skype you and hear your voice. You would make me feel better. I miss you like crazy. This is just so hard and quite frankly it sucks. Some days I just don't know what to do and other days I am ok. I sit and think just how funny life is. Every night when Mark & I walk the dogs I always look up to the sky and wonder where you are. I think about a lot of things. Looking up in the sky is so peaceful. No wonder why you like it so much. I wonder what you are doing. I wonder if you actually sleep or if you don't need sleep any longer. I wonder so many things! So many questions and unknowns about death and life after death. I used to think about it time to time and then I would stop myself because it made me sad...now I think about it more since you passed away. It still makes me sad but my curiosity is peaked. In some ways it makes me feel closer to you. I love you, pumpkin. Sweet dreams my precious son. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!