Dear Tyler,

Happy Thanksgiving to you my sweet precious son in Heaven today. I wonder what you are doing... are you feasting like everyone else today.. if not what do all you Angels do all day???? Mark & I are not doing a darn thing. We have treated today just like another ordinary day of the week. I did house cleaning most of the day and made him what he wanted... not turkey but homemade lasagna for dinner. The day was sunny and beautiful so that was nice. The dogs slept all day so that was a treat for me as well. I found myself staying busy all day so I wouldn't be reminded that it was a holiday. This way my mind wouldn't stop to think of all that I was missing in my life during this time of the year. 
 Thanksgiving is a time to reflect and be thankful for all things, but honestly I am thankful for several things every day of the year. I am thankful for our family and our friends. I am thankful for all the many years that we got to spend together and making all the memories that we did so I can look back on them now and smile. I am thankful for my health. I am thankful for Mark. He is so good to me and I know he is making you proud as you look down from Heaven on us. I am thankful for Max and Snickers too. They may be pains in the butt at times but I love them with all my heart and wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. I sit here and wonder if you are remembering all of the times we had and the fun during the holidays. Are you telling all our family and friends about them??? So many wonders I have :).
 I miss you so much and I love you. I wish that you were here with me and none of this nightmare ever happened in June. My heart hurts and I wonder if this pain will ever go away. Time seems to be making it worse instead of easier for Mom. This just plain sucks. 
 I spoke to Meme, Grandpa, and Grammy today. Grandpa went to visit you today. That made me smile and shed a few more tears. I know it hurts everyone that you are no longer with us. Everyone just keeps it to themselves and grieves in their own way. I know you are trying to help us all. Thank you Tyler. 
 Well tonight I will definitely see the stars up in the sky. It was a cloudless day here. I will look up to the stars tonight and whisper to you. Be ready to hear from Mom. I am hoping that you have a wonderful night and that it is peaceful. I hope you are happy my sweet son. Sweet dreams and watch over us all. Tell everyone in Heaven I said hello and Happy Thanksgiving!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!