Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today? I hope it is bright and sunny up there in Heaven. It is sure overcast and cloudy here again in Texas. Guess it is going to be this way until tomorrow. I actually can't wait to have the sun shining again. I know that those sunny days bring clear cloudless nights. That is my guarantee that I will see my bright star. Anyways... as you know I always whisper to you no matter if I see my star or not. Please always listen for Mom. I will always talk to you. I will never let you down.
 Today is the day for the Election for Grandpa. My fingers and toes are all crossed that he wins! I have said a few prayers as well. I know you will do all that you can as well to make sure your Grandpa wins. I spoke to him today and he has been straight out all last week and yesterday picketing for his campaign. He will be calling me tonight to let me know either way. I hope it is wonderful news. I wish I could have been there to help him but I am there in spirit. Things like this show me just how much I am missing out. If I lived in NH still I would be doing all that I can to make sure he had all the things Grandpa needed and all the campaigning he needed to help him out. I did do all that I could from a far. I just hope it helped out. You are so lucky. You will know ahead of any of us if Grandpa wins or not :)
 When Aunt Becky was here we chatted about Bean coming out to visit. It was suggested that when she does Meme should come with her. I thought it was a wonderful idea. I spoke to Meme last night and she really liked the idea. We are thinking February when it is cooler and not so hot and muggy. Meme doesn't do that well in the heat. I really hope that this will happen. I miss everyone so much. It makes me so sad to be so far away from our family and friends. I miss not being able to go and talk to you a your resting place. I know I can talk t you anywhere but it is just not the same. I hear that others do and I am so happy but so jealous at the same time. I want you to know that this Spring you will be getting a Flat Stone and a Sitting Bench. The stone will have your name and dates on it and I am thinking of putting a picture of you on one side and a picture of " Jack & Zero " on the other. It just seems fitting. The bench will have your picture and your dates on that as well. I want you to have the best and for Mom to make you proud and smile. It means a lot to me. 
 I miss you so much and I love you more than words or I can say. On FB every year for the month of November people are suppose to give " Thanks " to what means the most to them. Day 3 was dedicated to you. I will copy and paste what I wrote to you. Here it is:
 Day 3: Tyler Howard ~ Where do I start with this.... I am so thankful that God chose me to be your Mom. What an honor it was to have gone through your life day to day with you. The memories I will cherish forever as that is all I have of you now. You were my world. You were my everything. You were and always will be my HERO! I miss you so much and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Thank you for being you, my son that gave so much and asked for nothing in return. I will forever be grateful for you giving and showing me what was unconditional love was all about. 
 I mean every word of it too. Please, tonight listen for my whispers to you. Sweet dreams my precious son. You are my forever. My one and only love. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!