Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart! How are you doing today? I hope that you are doing wonderful up there in Heaven today. Mom is doing well. Today is sunny and in the 50's. My aches and pains are gone. What the sun can do to brighten a day or spirit is amazing. The rest of the weekend is going to be sunny to and in the 70's. I can't wait after having 7 days straight of rain!
 So tomorrow is the first Holiday that I will be having without you and the whole family. It makes me sad because everything I have ever known is gone. I hear everyone talking about what they are cooking, baking, and who is coming over to celebrate the day and I am angry! I don't want to be. I want to be happy but I hurt because you are not here. I am sad because we can't have a conversation any more. I miss you so much Tyler. I miss you every second of every minute of every day and the Holidays just make it worse. This just plain sucks. I want Thanksgiving to be already over with. I thought that I would be ok with things but I wouldn't be telling the truth it I said I was. Wow... I just cant even begin to imagine what it is going o be like for Mom during Christmas. I really don't want to think about it right now. 
 Do you have a big celebration up there in Heaven or is it just like any other ordinary day? I wonder what you do. Do you see our family and friends every day? I wish I knew. I hate the wondering and not knowing. If you do have a big feast up there... can you please give Nana, Pepe, and all the rest of the family and our friends a hug and kiss for me. Tell them I miss them all dearly. I hope that you get some time to spend with Ron too. Tell him that  " Momma T " says hello and that I hope he is well and happy. I sure do miss chatting with you all. 
 I am sure that I will be able to see the stars in the sky tonight. It makes me smile because I haven't seen any in 7 days. I will make sure to look up to and whisper to you. I hope that you hear me. I love you so much Tyler and I miss you dearly every day. You will always be my everything. Watch over Mom and all our family and friends. Thank you my sweet precious son. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!