Friday, November 15, 2013

Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart. How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? I hope you are smiling that precious smile I love. I hope you are happy happy happy and dong so many wonderful things up in Heaven. Mom is doing fine. It is a warm sunny day here. Such a nice change from cloudy, overcast, and rainy days that we have had. 
 I have to tell you that every time I am writing to you Snickers is right here on my lap. He is either staring out the window or he is laying his head on Mom's computer. Some times I wonder if he does this because he sees you and you are right here with me reading these letters as I write them. I know it will sound silly but some times when Snickers stares at me I swear it is not him looking at me.. it is you. I know I know it sounds silly, but when Snickers does stare it is almost like he is staring right to my soul and he is really trying to tell me something. He has done this since you have passed. I know he misses your voice. He loved it when you would talk to him on skype. He would listen to you and show you his toys. Max misses you too. He is sleeping right now. Doing what he does best..lol! Max is doing ok. I see that his breathing is getting worse lately. I just watch and say nothing. I am not stupid.. I see what is happening. Breaks my heart. As long as he is not in pain I will keep him home but if the vets say he is suffering I an't do that to him. I love him too much. He is 13 years old and he has had a wonderful life. He needs to be set free. He needs to be pain free and running with you in Heaven. He needs to meet Daisey, and Baxter too. Give the pups hugs and kisses from Mom. I miss them. They were all great pups!
 Anyways... Spoke to Grandpa today. He is doing well. Sounds happy and seems to be quite busy these days. He has a few things coming up... will tell you later. He wants to keep a couple a secret right now. You know him...hahaha! I am very happy for him though. Thanks for watching over him for me. It has been a huge adjustment for Mom not being near family all the time. I have always been there and for the last 10 months I have been the farthest away ever from family and friends. I love them all and miss them terribly. 
 Mark is doing well too. Work is work for him but he seems to enjoy it so that is what matters. I want you to know he is taking very good care of Mom. I know that was such a concern for you. We talked about that many times. You would worry about me as I would worry about you. I know you saw so much that happened to Mom in my personal relationships. None of that anymore. Mark is a gentleman and I am so lucky to have him in my life. You were such a great judge of character. I miss that. I would always ask you what you thought and felt. 9 times out of 10 you were right. You again got it right with Mark. Thank you. I know you would be proud of him. He treats me like a Princess. I will say it again.. I am lucky!!!!
 Well... I will predict that tonight will be a clear night for me to see the stars and my 1 bright star. I will whisper to you tonight so listen out for me. I wish you many sweet dreams tonight. I miss you so much. I love you beyond words. I hope you know this. You will always be my world. Fly high and fly free my sweet precious son. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

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