Dear Tyler,

Happy Halloween my precious son. Your favorite holiday has arrived and I am missing you so much this year. It has been a pretty hard day for Mom but I made sure to keep myself busy so I wouldn't do so much thinking and crying. I am getting ready for Aunt Becky & Uncle John to arrive tomorrow afternoon. I am starting to get excited to have company even if it is only for a couple of days. 
 The weather is finely better now. It has been raining like cats and dogs here for the last 3 days. The thunder & lightning has been really loud and quite the light show at times. I am glad that the rain stopped so all the kids could enjoy their evening tonight getting candy. Didn't see one child in a costume though. Things here are so different. The kids go to malls or strip malls and do their trick or treating instead of what we are used to by going door to door. Guess it is much safer that way for all the little ones. I was kind of bummed but probably is better this way. Not really in the Halloween mood. I am missing you too much. Our evening has been quiet and lounging by the tv. I did however keep our tradition by ordering pizza. Didn't feel much like cooking either. I just can't believe that you aren't here. It makes me so sad and times like this it hurts even more. I hate this feeling. I really do. I hate not talking to you or being able to hear your voice. It just plain sucks! 
 However you will be impressed that when I was scanning for shows last night I came across Halloween.. the movie and I actually watched it for like 15 minutes and then needed to change the channel. I said that you would be like " wow ". Your little Mommy is growing up. I was going to try and continue to watch it but just couldn't. maybe next year I can try again..lol! 
 I hope that you are doing well in Heaven. I hope your days are sunny and your nights are filled with bright stars and wonderful dreams. I hope you are happy and are pain free now. I only want whats best for you still. This will be a forever thing. This will never change. 
 My letter to you will be short tonight because I am going to post a few " Jack " pictures for you to enjoy. I also have one of a seal. That is a special one to you. You will always be my baby seal. 
 I will look for my bright star tonight and I will whisper to you like I always do. Watch over us and keep us safe and healthy. I miss you like crazy and I love you even more. Sweet dreams my sweet boy. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!