Dear Tyler,

 Hi my sweet son! I hope you are well on this Sunday evening. Mom is sorry that she didn't write a letter yesterday but it was kind of a rough day for me. I know you know what I am talking about. I was not really in a great mood and I was sad so I decided it would be for the best if I didn't write a letter and just relax and try to lay low for the day & night.... so that is exactly what I did. Today is a bit better. Slept in for a change because we were up early this morning with Snickers due to the heavy heavy rain that we got. The thunder and lightning were something else too! Guess it scared him a lot because we were up with him from 6am - 8am and then we fell back to sleep until 10am. Haven't done that in a very long time. 
 It was a busy day for us here. We didn't go out or do anything but we did a lot inside the apartment. You will be so proud of me... Mom even put a 5 shelf bookcase together. Had a little help but mostly did it all on my own. I was proud of myself. I can hear you say : Ah.. my little Mom is growing up "..LOL!  Did a lot of going through things and tossing out what we didn't need or want anymore. I have a couple trunks to go through and then everything is finished. I got rid of a lot of stuff again and I am ok with that. It feels good to me to dispose of what I no longer need or what no longer fits in my life any longer. I did come across your Senior Picture DVD. I looked through it and was immediately taken back to that day at Patch Park. I remember it so vividly...like it was yesterday and not 5 years ago. I am going to get a few and put them in some frames and hang them up. I think I will let your Dad know and send him a copy. I am sure he would really like it. I also found so many pictures I forgot we had. I even found your ID bracelet from when you were born. It made me smile. Oh how I remember that day. It was the BEST day and scariest day of my life. I didn't know if I would be able to be a new Mom and how I was going to take care of you and me but I was so surprised to see and know just how easy and natural it came to Mom. Being your Mom will be the best accomplishment that I have ever achieved in my life. You were a wonderful son. I can't say it enough just how much I was proud to be your Mom. 
 I found a little letter that you wrote me back in 2007. It was so sweet to find but sad as I read what you wrote. You said thank you to me for all that I did for you but you were sorry that you ruined my life. I need to set this straight. We had our fights and arguments and at times we didn't get along, said things we regretted, and other times we were just so stubborn like all parents are with their child or children but not ONCE did you ruin my life. You were NEVER a burden. I did the things I did daily for you because I wanted to and because I could. I enjoyed doing things for you. That is what being a Mom is all about. Caring for their child or children. Parenting is hard work but so worth it. I know you had a very hard time with this and at times you didn't believe me, but I hope you know now. This is the truth. No regrets from Mom for all the times I cared for you. As I said before I would do it again in a heart beat if I could. Wouldn't even think twice! 
 I miss you so much and I love you even more. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. I hope to go outside tonight to see my bright star and whisper to you. If I can't see it ten I will still whisper to you like I always do now. Listen out, ok? Please continue to watch over Mom and the rest of our family and friends. Sweet dreams my precious son. Love love love you so much. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!