Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! I hope your Monday was busy and really nice for you. Today was ok for Mom. Weather was warm and muggy after all the rain we had. I did some more cleaning in the apartment. I found some really old pictures of you and Mom, Dad and you when you were little. Brought back so many memories and a smile to my face. You were so little and such a little " ham " for the camera. I love your smile. Always did. I can hear your cute little voice talking to me. The pictures reminded me of all that we were and went through, places we had gone and where life is for me at this moment and where it has taken me. Hard to believe at times that I am 2100 miles away from home. So many things are surreal to me these days since your passing. Things seem weird to Mom. Time seems to stand still at moments and other times it flies right by. Most of the time I feel I am dreaming and at some point I will wake up and everything will change. I know.. wishful thinking. Guess it doesn't hurt to dream, right?
 So... this Thursday is Halloween! Your favorite :) Tonight on TV is your favorite movie again.. Nightmare Before Christmas. I think I might have to watch it just to see what all the hype is about. I remember watching it with you years ago, but I have forgot some of the plot to the movie. I need the refresher. I definitely will be thinking of you when I watch it and also I will be hearing you sing all the songs! 
 Oh yeah I found the video that I took of the last time we were at Sea World during Christmas. You are singing Christmas Carols while waiting for the Shamu show to start. I remember it like it was yesterday, not 3 years ago. I found a few other VHS tapes with you on them. First time we went to Florida, you meeting Mickey Mouse, your 11th Birthday party at home and a couple others. I am going to see if I can get them switched over to at least DVD's so I can watch them again. I am so happy for those and grateful for them. I can at least see you and hear your voice again. It will be music to my eyes. That day will be bittersweet when I watch them. Better get the tissues ready..lol!
 Be waiting tonight to hear my whispers to you. I will be looking for you. my bright shining star! Watch over us too. Thanks pumpkin. I miss you so much and I love you even more. Sweet dreams and I shall chat with you soon. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!