Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart! How is your afternoon going? I hope you are crazy busy and enjoying your day. I can't believe that we are already in October. Time here in the physical world is going by faster and faster. Mom is doing well. Trying to stay busy during the day when I am alone. I am actually enjoying working out and exercising again. It is week 3  and I believe I am losing inches. My clothes are fitting loose and I have more energy. I don't want to sit an watch tv at night.. I would rather be doing something and moving around and getting more exercise. Surprised???? I am..hahahaha. That is not Mom..lol! I am hoping that this is the first of many to make a healthier me. 
 Boy... as I sit here and type your letter today, I am watching my show Long Island Medium. Not a day goes by while watching it that I don't cry. I hurt for all the people and I feel their pain of their lost loved ones. I feel that it is a great healing process for me as well when I cry. I don't try to hold it in. I feel better when I do. I think it is another way for me to be healthy. I know it probably sounds crazy, but that is ok. I need to do what I need to do to get through the days. I know that you and a few others will understand so I am ok with that. 
 I think of you all the time, every day but I am going to make some cookies later and I know that it will make me think of all the times I made you cookies. The memories are what I hold onto now. They mean everything to me. One of my favorite quotes is:" Life is not measured by the number of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away." That quote means so much to Mom. You, my precious son gave me so many memories and so many times you took my breath away. So many moments that made me so proud to call you my son. You made me smile on days I didn't think I could. You still do. I love you with all my heart and soul. 
 Please continue to watch over Mom and our family. Stop by from time to time when you are not busy doing all your wonderful things in Heaven. Have a great night and I will make sure I look to the sky tonight. Be waiting for me to whisper to you. Love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Sweet dreams Tyler. Always, xoxoxo. Muah!