Dear Tyler,

Hey buddy! It is night fall again on October 1st. I can't believe the time that has gone by. Some days it seems to fly by and other times it seems to drag. The weather just seems to amaze me daily. It was sunny and humid today. I would like to say it was in the high 80's. Blows my mind... Sometimes it is really hard for me to believe that I don't live in NH anymore. This month will be month 3 in Texas. That doesn't seem possible either. Why you might ask???? It is because that means it will be 4 months since you left us and went home to Heaven. I miss you so much. I love you even more.
 Dad checked out my blog. He was sad to not have known about your Birthday Balloon Launch. I thought he knew about it. I was sad to know he was not a part of it. I am sorry to you as well, Tyler. Maybe Dad will release a few for you now. I hope you are not upset with me or Dad. 
 I spoke to Jeremy last night. I asked how he was doing and how things were going. He was saying that he was doing well. He was looking into going into a group home. I had asked why and he said there was too much death going on around the facility. He informed me that Ricky wasn't doing well. He is on Hospice mode and a morphine drip. Breathing with only 1 lung. That was sad to hear. I hope he doesn't suffer. I remember him from Exeter and all the times you 2 would play video games or watch movies together. I hope that when it is his time to go home to Heaven you will help him and be there. I know you will! I know that you liked Ricky and worried about him too even though he was loud at times during the night. You always thought about others more than yourself. I was and still am so proud of you for that. Your personality was amazing. One of a kind. I miss that the most. Oh yeah... Jeremy also said that Ron was doing ok but was getting harder to hear him. He was really losing his voice. Make sure you stop in and make your presence known to those boys. They miss you too and I know you miss them as well. 
 Spoke to Aunt Becky today. She is looking at coming at the end of this month. It will be so nice to see her and Uncle John. They can only stay for a couple days. Wish it could be longer but I will take whatever days they can visit. I miss our family and friends. 
 I hope that you have a great night. Sweet dreams my precious son. Like always.. I will look to the sky later tonight to see my bright star shining just for me. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!