Dear Tyler,

Hey my sweet son. I hope you are doing well today! Things are going ok with Mom. Today has been a crazy weather day here. First sunny, then overcast and looks like it can down pour at any time and then sunny again... and now it is overcast again. I looked to the sky last night and there were no clouds but I did still whisper to you...did you hear me? I hope so. 
 Today is a very special day for Mom. Today is my Anniversary! It has been 18 years since I heard those dreaded words " You have Cancer. " I remember it like it was yesterday. I don't think anyone would forget when a doctor tells them.. we give you 3 months to live. I was devastated when I heard those words. I remember coming home and crying to your Dad. He told me I would be ok and that he would take care of me. He said that was the least he could do for me for taking care of him when he was sick and had his surgery. I thanked him and came right in and went to see you. I needed to be near you. I remember telling you what happened..well enough for you to understand because you were just 6 years old. You told Mommy that I was going to be ok and that you were there for me. You made me cry, laugh, and smile all at the same time. You were so young and innocent. That night I told Meme and Grandpa. The next few days and months were a blur to me. So much going on. I remember the letter you wrote me when I was in the hospital. I missed you so much. You were just so sweet and caring. Do you know what? I still have that letter and all the letters and cards you gave me. They are the most precious things I have now. I cherish them. When I was unpacking our things.. I came across them and read them all. Again, they made me cry, laugh, and smile all at the same time. 
 I know we talked about this before but I want you to know again how much you helped Mommy through her treatments and surgeries. You gave me the strength to go on and not give up or quit. I would always think of everything that you went through and it would help me go on. I got my strength through you, Tyler. I thank you so much for that. Thank you for helping me through some of the hardest times of my life. Guess I just wish you were here with me still. I miss you so much. We were each others strength when the other was ill. We always could cheer the other up. I miss that. I miss our special Mom n son times. I know you do to.
 Well.. it is sunny again so I am going to cross my fingers and hope that continues. I need to see my bight star tonight. I hope that you are flying high and flying free. I hope that you are so busy up there you don't have time to think of what to do next :) Please continue to watch over Mom and everyone else. Be listening to my whisper. I miss you and I love you so much. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!