Dear Tyler,

Hi Pumpkin! Hope you had a really great day today up in Heaven. I am sure that you were crazy busy up there doing so many wonderful things. Mom wishes that she could see all the things you are doing and all the wonderful places you go to. I know you will take me to them when it is my time. I can't wait to see YOUR star that I gave you. I know you told me that you have been there several times and it is beautiful. I remember you saying that the stars are like rainbows/ prisms to you and are so different from what I see. You said you cant wait to show me because I will like stars more than what I already do. It sounds so pretty. 
 At your funeral I gave time for people to go up and share a memory of you or a story. When Sam went up there and was talking she told the story of you calling her " Sam I Am Green Eggs and Ham "  and how she used to call you " Ty Dye ". I loved her story. She said you were like the colors of the Tye dye ... out there, exploding with color, always bright and cheerful. It made me smile. I had tears of joy when she said it. She was so right. You were exactly the way she described you. Full of life and for most days smiling and facing all the every day challenges for yourself. I miss you so much. I miss you brightening my day when I saw you or heard your voice. I love you so much!
 I want you to know that I started this blog a couple weeks after you passed. It is now 4 months since I began and I have 2200 hits on my blog. I have folks visiting from United States, Canada, South Korea, France, Iraq, Ukraine, Russia, and Denmark. I think that it is amazing that there are so many folks out there that are reading my letters to you daily. I can only hope that if there are parents or a single parent out there that is going through the same thing as I am right now with losing a child... I hope that in some small way I can help them heal like these letters are doing for Mom. I just want to take a minute and thank everyone who reads these. I don't do it for any other reason than to have my conversations with you Tyler. I am using this as a coping mechanism for me to get by on a daily basis without you here with me. I am not doing it to gain popularity of any sort. I miss you beyond words and this helps me feel closer to you. There is such sadness and a huge void in my heart for not having you in my life any more. It hurts. I love you to the moon and back. I love you more than all the stars in the sky. I love you more than all the grains of sand on the beaches. It devastates me to know I can't get you back and that you aren't coming back. It haunts me every minute of the day to have to realize this. 
 You mean the world to me still. You always will. You will always be my little boy. You will always be the love of my life... the only one who truly has Mom's heart. Remember that ok? It is getting to that time soon where I will be going for my nightly walk with the pups. Be waiting for me to whisper your name and my nightly message to you. Watch over Mom and the rest of us. Keep us safe and healthy. Thanks Ty!
 Sweet dreams my precious son and know just how much you are loved by me and many others. I love you. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!