Dear Tyler,

Hi Buddy! How are you doing tonight? Again.. another rainy day and lots of overcast clouds and sky today. Was hoping that it clear up for this evening but no luck. It is ok... I will still whisper to you tonight as I always do! Be listening for me....
 I hope you like the letters, pictures, poems, and songs on here. They mean a lot to Mom. I hope I am making you proud for what I am doing. You are still so important to me and always will. I posted a poem today that is titled " A Picture of You "  It is so fitting for the way that I have been feeling since you passed away. The pain is so intense..it sucks.
 I was thinking today.. October 18th.. 4 months today since I have heard your voice. If I had only known that June 18th would be the last time I would have talked to you all night and never hung up the phone. This time every month brings back everything... the fear, the sadness, the hope, the pain, the devastation that happened 2 days later. I didn't sleep last night and didn't know why... I loose track of dates and days. Things that mattered to me before don't matter to me at all anymore. I saw the date and then knew why I didn't sleep. Happens every month since you passed on the 18th - 20th. My mind just works overtime and won't stop. All the horror comes back to me and makes the pain even worse for Mom. I don't know if this will ever change or fade in time, but I don't see it going away any time soon.
 Please continue to watch over Marion and her Mom. Her Mom is going in for 1 of the 2 or 3 surgeries that she needs tomorrow and the beginning of next week. They need all the prayers and help for got health as they can get. Please continue to watch over Mom and our family. We need them too.
 Spoke to Meme today... please help her as she has been sick for 3 weeks now and still feels awful. Spoke to Grandpa today too... I hear he went to see you and talk to you for a bit. That made me happy. I can't wait to come and see you and visit you too. It means so much to me. It hurts that I can't go on a daily basis. I know I can talk to you here but it just isn't the same for me. I love you so much and I miss you terribly. 
 Have sweet dreams my precious son. I will write more tomorrow. Fly high and fly free. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!