Dear Tyler,

Hey there pumpkin! It is night fall and it actually so nice with a little breeze. We finally get a break in the hot and humid weather. I hope that you had a great day today. Mom's day went by somewhat fast. Did my usual routine and then spoke to Aunt Becky for a bit. It is so nice to be talking to her and having a sister relationship again. It was way too long that we didn't talk as you know. I also know that you are so happy about these situation. I can see your smile and you saying that you were happy for both of us. Aunt Becky did say that you were helping her with some healing work. She told me that she has been letting you in during her sessions. I think that is amazing that you can help her. I chuckled when she told me that she knows it is you because you come in like a spiral pattern. I told her that doesn't surprise me.. you are now like the Tazmanian Devil...lol! I remember when we used to watch that cartoon together. Remember that your Dad has a tattoo of Taz with your initials and date of birth on his shoulder? 
 I often sit here and wonder what you do to fill your day with? What is Heaven really like? If you had a few words to describe it what would you say to me? Everyone always hears about what it could be like, or what we imagine it to be.. but it remains a mystery to the rest of us for now. Do you talk? Do you eat? Do you sleep? Those are the questions that I have and like I said... I wonder. I would really like to have another session with Forrest and hopes that you will come through again so that we can talk. It would mean so much to me. I am thinking that I would like to have it somewhere near the Holidays. This year is going to be so tough. I was hesitating whether to have a Christmas Tree this year... I still am unsure of that. Everything is still so new. Emotions are still so raw at this time. I am doing all I can to get through the days. I am trying and giving it my best. I am trying to make you proud. I miss you so much and I love you. You always made me so proud so now it is my turn to repay the favor to you.
 As I walk the dogs later this evening I will whisper to you so be listening for Mom. I will kiss my necklace and say I love you as I always do. Watch over Mom and our family and friends. Sweet dreams my precious son. I miss you. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!